Burying itself alive and wasting away its youth
Life becomes a timer, the host awaits the ring
Deceptively consuming to shroud a reality
A reality unwanted keeps the dreamer asleep
Endless entertainment of oceanic proportions
Wishing for the horn of Jotunheim to fill
Keyboards now absolving the blade, the rope
The tale of Odysseus inspiring scars
And yet it finds itself no mourning
In being drawn towards Next
Monday, 8 October 2012
Thursday, 4 October 2012
Private economy
For a
while now I have been drawn to writing another blog post. This time I
sought to relate it to why my inspiration had been missing for quite
a few months now. Through various issues I discovered that I was
suffering from some symptoms of stress. My imagination was stiffled,
making it hard to focus on doing what I had to do. Now my life is by
no means stressful in comparison to normality, however, I because I
have gone through so many different perspectives on how to earn my
daily bread, I am beginning to tire. Fear of never finding a
commercial passion, or actually just any type of passion, threatens
my survival and this is stressful.
Whether
good or bad I am extremely poor at subscribing to temporary
solutions. If I know that a job or an education will not be relevant
or interesting to me at a later point, I feel like quitting and that
feeling can sometimes take hold of whatever chance it had of growing.
Now I have no doubt that this is somehow related to classical
psychological issues of fear causing people to quit. I could most
likely read up on it and discover that I am quite similar to other
people who have experienced this issue and have solved it somehow.
Either on their own or therapeutically, but this is where a major
complication arises.
Because I
am a firm believer that this capitalistic monetarily based system is
unsustainable I instantly discredit such psychological findings as
they seem relevant only to the people interested in conforming to
this system. I see this as one of many symptoms that the system is
trying to do patch work on its short comings rather than
self-examining to discover the unrecoverable situation and initiate a
proper solution. Personally I have no interest in conforming, which
is why it is so hard for me, as it seems to cost bits and pieces of
my integrity every time I do. I find myself saying one thing and
doing another.
This
economic terrorism is so subtle that it seems ridiculous to even call
it that. But that is what it is. Perhaps I will return to this issue
at a later point. I should.
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